I’m Half Full
I’m starting to feel a lot more positive about my current situation. Not feeling as low or as sorry for myself after the weekend, and I apologise for going off on such a depressing tangent last Friday, but I won’t ever edit or delete that post – no matter how irrational I was being. This blog helps me vent and eventually sort my headin more ways than I thought it could.
With regards to my injury and the studio, I’ve just got to keep being positive I suppose. Although it is hard, when all I want to be doing is training my arse off for the comps. To throw two brililant sayings together though, time is a great healer, and patience is a virtue. Says it all really doesn’t it.
On the GL front (or not, haha), all should be done with now. He saw me talking to one of the directors from work on Friday when I was upset, shit himself and then rang me at lunch. He was checking I was ok, aka covering his own arse. I told him I want nothing else to do with him, and that I wanted to walk away from the situation with what little dignity as I have left. He apologised, saying it wasn’t his intention to make me feel bad about myself. Fuck you, you silly cunt.
I am so looking forward to Zante now… I am feeling nothing but positive things about it. I cannot wait to get out of this shitty country and be with a lad who I actually want to spend some time with for a change. Spoke to Matt quite a lot over the last few days; He’s got Thursday, Friday and Sunday off work, and we’re getting a jeep on Friday so we can go bossing off around the island seeing the sights over the weekend too. Should be lovely.
A good friend of mine described what I was feeling as a ‘love vacuum stress’. She said I needed to curb the drinking and have some proper ‘take care of yourself’ time. This ‘good friend’ has only been a friend of mine for a matter of months. She was there to give out well-received advice when I needed it the most, and no matter what my troubles are, she is always there to tell me what needs to be told and her words will always be taken on board. You know who you are, so thank you, and thanks to everyone else who supports me and gives a fuck, even if it is only slightly, it means a lot.
Love you all Xx
304
From an average of about 30 page views a day, with the addition of my Revelations blog, yesterday I had a whopping 304! I really am interesting, haha… No seriously, thank you to everyone who is following. I will officially try my best to keep it just as juicy from now on. Nejjy will be sacrificing her self-respect for you all from this day forth…
To add… Tonight is the work meal and staff night out. GL was on the phone to me lastnight, trying to get on my good side. Saying all the stuff with the other girls in the office was way in the past and that he really likes me. He’s looking forward to spending some time with me tonight and thinks we need to have a chat to “sort it all out”… Blah blah blah. My work colleague Lisa knows a limited amount of what has gone on between me and him (I told her), but she knows enough to give me advice about it. She thinks I should get him to the point of nakedness, tie him up, take a picture, then steal his clothes and wallet and fuck off to do some online shopping with his credit card. I told her I’d see what I could do.
I’ve make the professional decision to start drinking at lunch time and then secretly drink in the toilets throughout the afternoon today. I may as well get a headstart seen as it is my aim of the night to be the office talking point on Monday morning! Sweet.
The other night, a male friend of a female friend of mine (who is fit by the way – I’m referring to the male), told me that every time he see’s my facebook status and photos I’m either on my way to go and be drunk, already drunk, or recovering from being drunk… He has nicknamed me the Lohan (i.e. Lindsay), and claims that I love rauch and booze. Brilliant.
So this evening, the Lohan is coming out in full fucking force! Updates and tales of my debauchery will be with you all tomorrow 
